Freedom From Loss
One of the unexpected experiences that comes out of both parents dying, that I’ve certainly noticed, is freedom.
Freedom to be more yourself. Freedom to connect more with your true nature, your interests, and personality traits without repercussion of judgement or rejection from people that you rely on emotionally (for approval or acknowledgement) — whether one realises it or not.
One of the freedoms that I’ve experienced since both my parents have died is being able to sing again. I know that sounds strange. Most equate singing with happiness.
‘Huh? Santou, are you saying that you are happy that your parents have died?! And that’s why you can sing again?!’
No.
I’ll say more in just a second.
This sense of freedom isn’t like a light switch that I just turned on after they died. It was such a damaging experience to sing, or even speak, in my family of origin, which shut me down for many years. There were many periods in my adulthood of stops and starts, stops and starts, with singing and solo musical performances. I would sometimes find the courage to sing solo in recitals or within a choral piece, and then there were periods when I would withdraw and not sing for years.
But the freedom that one experiences after the death of a parent is that you get in touch with your own core values as well — not just the values imparted by your parents.
Devising these upcoming webinars called Angelic Sound Frequency Healing on January 10th (Part 1), where my husband and I sing in the webinar, has been an unfolding process and a realisation of just how important classical music is in my life and to my life.
It’s been important for my spiritual formation, for my mental wellbeing, and for my physical health. (There are soooo many physical and mental health benefits to singing, which I will impart in Part 2, because I will be encouraging attendees to sing in that webinar, if they choose to.)
My parents didn’t value classical music (I will be presumptuous enough to say they didn’t like classical music at all!). They appreciated other genres of music. I think it’s because they weren’t European, and well-known European classical music wasn’t part of their culture growing up. I grew up in a different culture from them when we escaped a war-torn country, so it became part of my new culture and education at school.
But also, I grew to love classical music, I think, because of my encounters with angels singing to me.
If you would like to hear more about this, you can learn more here:
https://pg.santoucarter.com/angelwebinars/